Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Winter: My Secret by Christina Rossetti

I tell my secret? No indeed, not I:
Perhaps some day, who knows?
But not today; it froze, and blows and snows,
And you're too curious: fie!
You want to hear it? well:
Only, my secret's mine, and I won't tell.

Or, after all, perhaps there's none:
Suppose there is no secret after all,
But only just my fun.
Today's a nipping day, a biting day;
In which one wants a shawl,
A veil, a cloak, and other wraps:
I cannot ope to everyone who taps,
And let the draughts come whistling thro' my hall;
Come bounding and surrounding me,
Come buffeting, astounding me,
Nipping and clipping thro' my wraps and all.
I wear my mask for warmth: who ever shows
His nose to Russian snows
To be pecked at by every wind that blows?
You would not peck? I thank you for good will,
Believe, but leave the truth untested still.

Spring's an expansive time: yet I don't trust
March with its peck of dust,
Nor April with its rainbow-crowned brief showers,
Nor even May, whose flowers
One frost may wither thro' the sunless hours.

Perhaps some languid summer day,
When drowsy birds sing less and less,
And golden fruit is ripening to excess,
If there's not too much sun nor too much cloud,
And the warm wind is neither still nor loud,
Perhaps my secret I may say,
Or you may guess.

-Christina Rossetti-


Saturday, January 29, 2011

Be My Escape by Reliant K


I've given up on giving up slowly.
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world  that shares my fate.
This one last bullet you mentioned
Is my one last shot at redemption.
'Cause I know to live you must give your life away.

And I've been housing all this doubt,
And insecurity, and I've been
Locked inside that house,
All the while you hold the key, and I've been
Dying to get out.
And that might be the death of me, and even though
There's no way of knowing where to go,
I promise I'm going, because...

I gotta get out of here.
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into my mistake.
I gotta get out of here.
And I'm begging you,
I'm begging you,
I'm begging you to be my escape.

I'm giving up on doing this alone now,
'Cause I failed and I'm ready to be shown how.
You've told me the way and I'm trying to get there.
And this life sentence that I'm serving,
I admit that I'm every bit deserving.
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.

And I've been housing all this doubt,
And insecurity, and I've been
Locked inside that house,
All the while you hold the key, and I've been
Dying to get out.
And that might be the death of me, and even though
There's no way of knowing where to go,
I promise I'm going, because...

I gotta get out of here.
'Cause I'm afraid that this complaisantcy is something I can't shake.
Yeah.
I gotta get out of here.
And I'm begging you,
I'm begging you,
I'm begging you to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity.
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made.
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me.
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave...


And I've been housing all this doubt,
And insecurity, and I've been
Locked inside that house,
All the while you hold the key, and I've been
Dying to get out,
And that might be the death of me, and even though
There's no way of knowing where to go,
I promise I'm going, because...

I gotta get out of here.
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into my mistake.
I gotta get out of here.
And I'm begging you,
I'm begging you,
I'm begging you to be my escape.

I fought you for so long. I should have let you in.
(Oh how we regret those things we do)
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin.
(Oh-oh)
But, so were you...
So...were...you...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

My new song. ♥

Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet by Reliant K.


I think you know what I'm getting at.
I find it so upsetting that,
The memories that you select,
You keep the bad, but the good you just forget.

And even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
When you peel out and drive away.
I can't believe this happened.

And all this time I never thought
That all we had would be all for naught

No, I don't hate you,
Don't want to fight you,
Know I'll always love you,
But right now I just don't like you.
No, I don't hate you,
Don't want to fight you,
Know I'll always love you,
But right now I just don't like you,
'Cause you took this too far. Too far.

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice.
Go with your instincts along with some bad advice.
This didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all.
You blame me, but some of this is still your fault.

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge.
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge.
I think you know what I'm getting at
You said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that!


No, I don't hate you,
Don't want to fight you,
Know I'll always love you,
But right now I just don't like you.
No, I don't hate you,
Don't want to fight you,
Know I'll always love you,
But right now I just don't like you,
'Cause you took this too far.


And wisdom always chooses
These black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away.


No, I don't hate you,
Don't want to fight you,
Know I'll always love you,
But right now I just don't like you,
'Cause you took this too far...





http://listen.grooveshark.com/s/Which+To+Bury+Us+Or+The+Hatchet+acoustic+/ynKu9

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

A little poem I wrote today.

The man in the hole he dug for himself.
How many must there be? 
I've met one before, 
He buried himself. 
He said it was for me. 


Disbelief is an understatement 
Of how I felt that day.
One left behind, 
And then she said, 
"Another's on the way."



Monday, October 18, 2010

Just starting something new...what do you think?

You know all those stories about great heroes or adventurers that do amazing things and change the world?

  • For instance, maybe there's one hero who killed a hideous orc king, saving the kingdom from his evil wrath.
  • Or, there's one person who starts a rebellion and overthrows a tyrannical government.
  • Maybe, there's that one brave person who does something credible, and is carried by the crowd to his soon-to-be wife.
  • Or perhaps there's some great warrior who had success on the battle field.
  • Or it could be that a baby was born who fulfilled some prophecy and would one day grow up to save the world from some evil.
  • Or, better yet, there's a boy walking through the woods, and BAM! a dragon egg. There's all kinds of stories like that. Other variations would be yet another boy who's village is being attacked by dragons, and he shoots one right out of the sky, thus gaining a pet dragon. Or, a prince who's dying and so the kingdom begs for help from a dragon. Of course, there's also the so-called dragon killer who befriends the dragon. There's another dragon and guy story.
But, you know, in stories about great men and women there are also the supporting and background characters. 
   The supporting characters usually have a pretty good role in the story. They might be the main character's brother, or best friend. Maybe, a parent that dies.
    The background characters probably have a role that goes something like: "The crowd cheered for the marvelous hero who had saved the kingdom from the evil orc king."
The crowd would be the background characters. They probably do other things too:
  • Like, kick-start the rebellion against the government, or
  • They carry the wonderfully brave person, or
  • They're the people who die in battle and are now labeled as martyrs.
  • Or, the family of the baby.
  • Or, the deer that run from the burning crater in which rests the dragon's egg.
  • Or, they're the nameless people who are fighting the dragons.
  • Or the people who die in the first scene.
Even background characters have some kind of importance.

Now, at this point you'd expect me to start into my amazing life-story. Well, I'm sorry, but as of right now there is no chance in a million years that anything exciting would ever happen to me, no matter how many day-dreams I create. 
See, I'm not even a background character.
  • I'm one of those people in the crowd that has no idea why we're cheering, but I do anyway. 
  • If I ever had a chance to carry a hero, I'd probably either get trampled to death, or end up carrying the hero's backside. 
  • As for our government, no one can really complain.
  • I've never died on a battle field, obviously. But, my brother did.
  • The baby? Well, what if I knew someone who's brother's wife's cousin's daughter had a baby? Does that count?
  • And, um, dragons don't exist...do they?

Awesome words that I found.

  • Gedankenexperiment: an experiment carried out in thought only

  • Hemidemisemiquaver: sixty-fourth note
  • Prestidigitation: sleight of hand
  • Quattuordecillion: a number equal to 1 followed by 45 zeros (or 10 to the 45th power)
  • Tintinnabulation: the ringing or sounding of bells
  • Lemniscate: the infinity symbol 
  • Ubiquitous: existing or being everywhere at the same time.
  • The word "Flak" as in getting shot at by antiaircraft guns, is short for the German word "Fliegerabwehrkanonen", practically meaning "flying-defense-cannons."