I know what You told me...But, it's so hard sometimes...

Patience...
That what it said in my Father's Blessing.
That I need to have patience.

The questions I'm always asking:
Has it been worth it?
Am I wasting my time?
Will this get me anywhere?

 I love it so much, but it just seems that I'm not meant to do it. That maybe, there's something else for me to do. There's no way for me to do it. Our money is so tight right now, that we can't even feed them sometimes.
And then, things like this happen. Big events that would take me somewhere, that would get my dreams out of my head, and into the world. Events that would take this out of my back yard, and into my life. What am I doing wrong? What do I need to do right?

Oh...I was so confused...It...was heartbreaking...
It never seemed to work out.

The answers I was given. The ones I had been searching for:
Yes, it has.
No, you aren't.
Yes. It most definitely will.

I knew you would love it, and that's why I have given you this gift. You have him for a reason.
Just. Have. Patience. And all will be well. It will all turn out in the end. I will make it all a reality, and all I ask is patience.

Seems easy enough right.

But, it's so hard. It's so hard not to be jealous, not to mourn at my inability to do what I most desperately would love to do. And then, they flaunt it around, like every one has been there. That it's a celebration.
And, it is...Only...one I can't attend.

Like I said. It's hard. But, it's only hard, because I need it to be. This is something I must over come.

Something, I will over come.